Fear...frm lots of things..

First of all want to say that i have nth to do for the past few days but just that i was lazy to blog...So today i'm posting again about some things which i fear....truely not just scared but fear of...first things first about my exams well they are quite well for the time being the English Paper 2 today was easy enough i mean for the standard since the paper was set by Mr Chew...well those in my school should know what i mean right??? Secondly, the first thing i fear about that is my migraine(severe headache), well i dunno when it started but everytime it did its damn painful lor....but the thing i fear about is not just this but what i fear is that its beginning to get worse these few days especially now that its my exam....wah sian and because of this migraine my social studies is going to flung and when i told that amy chong she gave me that'too bad then' look wah sian lor like i'm going to lie about something like that...haiz...and i feared it because i'm afraid that it might be something worse then what i thought to be migraine....like one guy in my sch who died of cancerous brain tumour last year but at least his studies was good his mid-year got 2nd in class pro right....Thirdly, which is about the second thing which i have feared for a long time and that is to lose my friends cause i'm not a guy who can stand being alone and not thinking about stupid ideas like killing myself or stuff like that..only when i'm with my family or friends then can i be distracted frm these thoughts which is equally scary....and causes me to become depressed... The lsat thing is my fear of being rejected again for the dunno how many times so sian and sad lor....what the heck...am i really that lousy guy or is it that i always choose to like the wrong girl...my sis tell me that it is because my second sis keep dunping guys so in turn it becomes my turn to be dumped by girls...what a reason..sian..then she say she got a better reason which made me feel even worse and that is i have 'dumped' too many girls in maple and pls lor that is only a game.......sian then she ssay must have been because i 'dumped' a girl who jioed me in pri3 and i did not even know what is love at that moment...wah..is it real or is it because i am just so unlucky or is it because i really am a lousy suck to the core guy??? CAN ANYONE TELL ME THE TRUTH...AHHHHH
P.S.: Bye, that's all for today....good luck to all having exams bye....loving someone...and i've thought of writing down the names of songs which i like everyday and if anyone dun have them and wants them..just tell me and i'll send it to you..BYE
Song of the day:Alicia Kees-If I ain't got you....

Jovan's day out in near total freedom...

Today very shiok ah cause the moment i went home and told my mum i'm going out to study..she said sure no prob and dun be back to late thats all...wooohooo....but end up i went to 496 to study in a kopitiam instead of frontier library..lol..but at 5.25 like that matt say he want to go borrow books frm Frontier Librabry....some book title named:P.S. I Love You..dunno nice or not...after we reached there we couldn't find the book so we ended up studying there...so unlike me lor..a person who has not been really studying for the past 3 and a 1/2 years..wah super migrain(kind of heavy headache cause i got flu some more)...then matt win liao lor alot of chio bu(pretty girls)looking at today more the the time when he wore formal....*weet*..*weet*.....after that reach home at around 10+ cause waited for my sis....now having migrain again...pain lah...thats all..
P.S.: Ok not exactly since i always have a P.S.....still have another week(7days) to my prelim wah sian not exactly prepared what can i do???Chiong lah....oh and everybody pls DO NOT missunderstand matt as bad guy cause he really isn't and he's alot better than some guy i know...some fren of mine...Current mood damn sad lah...close to break down if my mind wasn't clogged up by my flu....cause thinking of someone in my heart....sian lah...T_T..damn sad lah..want to find some place to shout my heart out...but where?? ok thats all bye bye to all my readers...and tag pls..

Yesterday was quite a happy day cause it was a half day thing and there was the natinal day celebrations everyone was so high. And my ex-classmates(people frm 3e7 now 4e7) won the most petriotic class award GRATS!!!! After school went home then after that went to jp meet Oh, matt and kimchii was suppose to meet clar also but she couldn't make it then Oh called agnes along lol...she paid her part but nvr eat...lucky Oh's bro joseph got go...also saw whole of 4/7 there...so good lor Mr Tay treat the whole class. After that we went to K-pool wah some many ppl....joseph almost can't go in cause the receptionist thought he wearing sch uniform...lol..she can't differntiate..then we play until 2+,3 like that want to go liao then at the time agnes call and say that the card thing is with her, meaning we can't go yet so sian lor...then she say she coming liao but end up at 4+ still haven't see her then we call her again ahe tell us she still at home...matt tell her to come in 10min, you know wat? she reached after 40+ min wah lao...Oh cha mah he ended up paying $30+ for the game...win liao lor thanx to agnes..
P.S.:sian lor really regreted not studying hard last year if not everything would have been diffrent...Another 11 days to prelims and i'm still NOT prepared wat shall i do who can help me...

What a day so sian.....

Today again very sian cause got not much things to do..but at least know that tml i'll be wearing my NCC uniform instead of tee-shirt...quite good lah cause long time nvr wear liao plus quite missed it...then today i hid in the wrong place wah trying to get away frm miss chong's remedial cause really is like not going lor even if i did...cause i dunno a thing and turning up is like not since i'm just going to stare at anything she gives me....and mostof the time nvr do homework cause really is dunno how to do and still kana scold so sian lor...haiz so sian...
P.S.:always be prepared for the nxt day or else you'll regret...sian another 13 days to Prelims..not really prepared...

Waht a

Long Long time....

Its been a long time since i last posted...well thanx everyone for their comcerns..my mum(bio) is getting better now and she's stoppped working so that she can rest at home...and this few days i've been going back to take careof her till my father(bio) comes back.....but today i nvr go cause i went to play pool at Arena with Oh, KimChee, Clarissa, Linus and Ryan...played alot and we used alot of money...sian..broke like nobody's business...so ma loo...then morning i late again but today no late slip cause missed the OM..win liao lor..ok thats all for today bye...
P.S.:18days to Prelims which is on 20thAug07..